Dear Heart of Mine

I know you feel so much pain and you hold grudges. I understand you are still upset, and with good reason– it is never fair when someone hurts you so. My heart, I see you are still deeply wounded, still bleeding day and night and it won’t stop. I see the anger that is building up from your lack of healing, the lack of care I have shown you. My mind has become well, but I left you here with sorrow and despair. I have not tried to help you become whole again, see the sun rise and fall again– in the dark I have left you. You see, my heart, you always were so strong, always able to take it all on and I didn’t think I needed to help you as I did my mind. You’ve always healed yourself in time and I could clearly see my mind was faulting me and that needed to change immediately. But you, you sat and waited patiently for me to come with my gauze and Band-Aids of love and help you heal. You waited and waited and I had not shown. I fooled myself into thinking you were fine. But I realize, you are still waiting, still hurting from those days that caused us pain. I am here now though, my heart. I am ready to see you for what you are, accept your invitation for help. With you I will sit and see–no longer will I leave you waiting for me. Together we will again feel, be as one–heart, mind, body; a soul.