Mother's Day

reminds 

many of their wonderful mothers who

were there 

no matter what the situation was; only one

 who 

put your life ahead of their own,

you were 

the center of their world, the universe.

You know 

she will always have your back, never suspect she may turn.

Though this is not 

what some think of on this day. Some like myself

wonder 

what happened, where things went wrong.

Looking

at her–I don’t see a mom.

Some people

 like me, sit with their siblings and talk of how

embarrassed 

we are, how we wish we could help.

She’s so far 

off the path, hopes of hope are far gone, we continue on.

I’m thankful 

for what you have taught me in all your wrong doings of me.

 I’m deeply thankful 

for the scars you left and my dying insecurities.

Deep, Deep down,

I wish I could love you like others love their mother, but

resentment and hatred lie 

where your love is, though I did not plant those seeds,

 it was your hand that reached in.