Baby, Be Mine

Lyrics

I don’t care if your heart is cold,
or if you’ve made mistakes before.
I’m going to love you anyways,
more than I ever could before.

Now, we may have seen love before
and it hurt us both, yeah we were torn
but I won’t leave you that way.
Promise I will never stray.

Cause, baby I’m telling you,
I know you want to be with me too
and this is something we shouldn’t deny.
So come over here and be my guy.

Cause, I don’t care if your heart is cold,
or if you’ve made mistakes before.
I’m going to love you anyways,
more than I ever could before.

Because I see something in you,
I hope you see it in me too.
It’s something I can’t deny.
Baby, I want to make you mine.

The way you look at me with those eyes
and give me the most beautiful smile
I know this is meant to be,
forever you and me.

Yeah, you never leave my mind.
It’s only you all the time.
And for you “I’d walk the line”
‘cause honestly you’re my perfect guy.

Yeah, I don’t care if your heart is cold,
or if you’ve made mistakes before.
I’m going to love you anyways,
more than I ever could before.

Because I see something in you,
I hope you see it in me too.
It’s something I can’t deny.
Baby, I want to make you mine.
Oh mine.
I want to make you mine.
Yeah, mine.

Oh, I’ll never make you cry,
so, baby, just be mine.
Be mine, oh be mine.
Baby, be mine

Blooming in Forgiveness

Today will be the day
I forgive the pain
caused to me.
You are only human.

And today will be the day
I forgive myself too
because I don’t only
blame you.

This grudge is wearing
me thin–keeping me
victim–that’s not what I am.

But with these forgiveness’s
I’ll be reborn.
Let lotuses bloom in me,
sunflowers no more.

Caution: Not All Words Are Truth

You may think some poems
are directed at you
but I’ll let you know,
it’s not completely true.

These are just words
that come from my heart
and some don’t make sense
for my life, they are just fill-ins
to make better art.

So when I say,
Don’t lose your chance with me
I’m not really talking to you–
in all honesty,
I may never stop wanting you.

So pick and choose
what words are meant for you.
I’ll give you a hint
which ones might be true–

Ones where I say
my feelings for you;
I’m here in the stars, sitting with the moon–

So just keep smiling for me
the way you always do,
and I’ll keep writing poems
inspired by a lovely you.

Get Out of My World

lyrics

In these shadows I cast upon the walls
I hope to see your face
but it’s an empty room
and all I do is pace.

Waiting for a phone to ring, 

hear your voice again.
Waiting for you to break in,
steal me from myself again,

[Chorus]

‘Cause I’m lost and confused
without you here,
telling me how it is
making me believe something untrue.

And I am scared to make it alone
but that’s what I’m doing,
trying every day
to empty you from my world.

So, get out of my world.
You’re not welcomed here no more.

No, I don’t really miss you
or long to have you here.
I know I’d die from your kisses
always laced with poisons.

It’s a crazy thing this broken heart,
I’m trying to let it go,
unravel this maze you left behind
in my hideously tainted mind.

[Chorus]

‘Cause I’m lost and confused
without you here,
telling me how it is
making me believe something untrue.

And I’m scared to make it alone
but that’s what I’m doing,
trying every day
to empty you from my world.

So, get out of my world.
You’re not welcomed here no more.

In time I’ll forget you were even here.
No longer will you haunt my every dream,
fighting and further ruining me.
‘Cause tonight I’m letting you go,
I’m letting you go.
I’m letting you go

So I won’t be lost and confused
without you here,
telling me how it is
making me believe something untrue.

I’m no longer scared
to make it alone
to empty you,
empty you from my world.

Yeah, get out of my world.
You’re not welcomed here no more
Get out of my world.
You’re not welcomed here no more.

Dear Heart of Mine

I know you feel so much pain and you hold grudges. I understand you are still upset, and with good reason– it is never fair when someone hurts you so. My heart, I see you are still deeply wounded, still bleeding day and night and it won’t stop. I see the anger that is building up from your lack of healing, the lack of care I have shown you. My mind has become well, but I left you here with sorrow and despair. I have not tried to help you become whole again, see the sun rise and fall again– in the dark I have left you. You see, my heart, you always were so strong, always able to take it all on and I didn’t think I needed to help you as I did my mind. You’ve always healed yourself in time and I could clearly see my mind was faulting me and that needed to change immediately. But you, you sat and waited patiently for me to come with my gauze and Band-Aids of love and help you heal. You waited and waited and I had not shown. I fooled myself into thinking you were fine. But I realize, you are still waiting, still hurting from those days that caused us pain. I am here now though, my heart. I am ready to see you for what you are, accept your invitation for help. With you I will sit and see–no longer will I leave you waiting for me. Together we will again feel, be as one–heart, mind, body; a soul.

Only Exception by Paramore Cover

Space Bound by Eminem Cover on Acoustic

She Won't Go

Lyrics

There's a girl I know

who acts like shadows on the wall
as she watches her life
pass her by.

She's swallowed by her pain,

that she will never show

'cause she's afraid
she'll never let him go

Even though, even though

she knows that he's a liar

can't be trusted, always busted 

fucking other girls.

[Chorus]

But she won't go

'cause she doesn't know
if she can be alone.

So she sits and waits,

praying for change

knowing it won't show.

I can see the pain inside you

the shattered heart in there

because of what's beside you

keeping you filled with fear.

Each night she comes home

hoping for a different story

but it's all the same, this foolish game

they always seem to play.

He starts a fight,

she can't do anything right

as spit hits her across the face

But he really loves her

as he puts her back in her place

[Chorus]

But she won't go

'cause she doesn't know
if she can be alone.

So she sits and waits
praying for change
knowing it won't show.

I can see the pain inside you,

the shattered heart in there

because of what's beside you

keeping you filled with fear.

So each night I lie awake

thinking of the different ways

she can rid this pain

and make it out alive.

But I know, oh yes I know

it's her choice not to go

and I can only hope

she makes it out alive.

Oh, girl you've got to go

you're not in this alone.

I'll be here right beside you.

I can see what's inside you.

Oh, but she won't go

'cause she doesn't know

if she can be alone.

So she sits and waits

praying for change

knowing it wont show.

You know that it won't show.

Catching Rainbows

I long to wake every morning
beside you, into a state of bliss.

Know my day will be fine
because at night I get to see this;

your handsome eyes staring
back at me and kiss your flawless lips.

Being with you I don’t fear
there is anything I’ll miss.

I know that you won’t hold me back,
but push me father than I imagined to go.

Just being with you is like catching a rainbow.

Because I have learned
love is all we really need.

Maybe, soon enough you’ll see
this the same way as me, at least

this is what I can hope and dream.

Don’t lose your chance with me,
you know I’m a rainbow too

and I won’t wait around forever,
waiting for you to love me too.

There are others trying to steal
the pot of gold from my rainbow.

So, don’t hide that treasure away,
come back to bed, say you’ll stay

and give me that beautiful
smile for just one more day.

The Mindful One

Lyrics

I lost myself in the bitterness of others
Forgot who I am, and who I want to be
Starting acting like the old me;
didn’t care enough about others, only me

But here I am today, I'm half a world away
and I’m seeing the better side of me
Cause I left it all behind, just for a little while
so I can return in days to come
as the mindful one

See when I was there, I just could not bear
the pain and drama of the others
I felt overwhelmed, stuck in an angry shell
not even a day away could help me escape

it couldn't help me escape

But here I am today, I'm half a world away
and I’m seeing the better side of me
Cause I left it all behind, just for a little while
so I can return in days to come
as the mindful one

the mindful one

So no fear my friends, I’ll be better in the end
And when I return I’ll be refreshed
Ready to take it all on again

But here I am today, I'm half a world away
and I’m seeing the better side of me
Cause I left it all behind, just for a little while
so I can return in days to come
as the mindful one
the mindful one

I'm gonna be the mindful one

A Surprising Feeling

There is a happiness that fills my heart
when thoughts of you fill my mind–
certain sunshine starts to shine
and my body seems to float away
amongst the clouds on a blue-sky
kind of day; feeling of laying
on top the ocean waves.

I’m here in the stars, sitting with the moon–
just a pen, paper and thoughts of you.

I’m on top the red wood trees,
on the lookout, searching for we.

And when I don’t see it, I finally see,
it isn’t you that is searching for me.
Because of this, there is no we, only
I and you– together we won't be.

But I still lay among these thick white clouds,
still listen to these crashing ocean waves
sitting in the sand, enjoying the day.

I still watch the moon with pen
and paper and thoughts of you–

write this poem down
in ink impermanent,
send it to those tree tops
for you
to one day find.

Smile For Me

Lyrics

Light breaks through the shades
falling perfectly on your face
as your eyes begin to make their climb

[Chorus]

And you smile
when your looking right at me
and I melt
because I love you can’t you see
and I don’t ever wanna lose you
don't ever wanna see you leave
so just keep smiling for me

Your hand touches my face
and you lift the hairs away

give me a smile that remains
as you pull me closer in

[Chorus]

and you smile
when your looking right at me
and I melt
because I love you can’t you see
and I don’t ever wanna lose you
don't ever wanna see you leave
so just keep smiling for me
yeah keep smiling for me

Because through your smiles
happiness floods through me
it’s the only way I can remain breathing

When you smile for me
and I know it’s me you see
yeah, I melt inside
because I love you, obviously
and I don’t ever wanna lose you
don't ever wanna see you leave
so just smiling for me
yeah, keep smile for me baby, smile for me

smile for me

I'm Me Because of You

Lyrics

Young love
thought you were the one
My search was over at 13
That is what I believed

Then I found out about her
and it shattered my world

[Chorus]

But that’s alright, I’m okay
I am much stronger today
Though you put me through this pain
I thank you for treating me this way
because I am me because of you

Oh you, oh oh oh

You weren’t just my mother
But my best friend
I knew you would be there till the end
That is what I believed

But then you showed me
when you decided suddenly to leave
Yeah, he’s more important than me

[Chorus]

But that’s alright, I’m okay
I am much stronger today
Though you put me through this pain
I thank you for treating me this way
Because I am me because of you

Oh you, because of you
ohh because of you

Then I was finally saved
True love and happiness came my way
That is what I believed

But every monster wears a mask
you lifted your’s quite fast
I finally saw it there
When you tried to take away my air

[Chorus]

But that’s alright, I’m okay
I am much stronger today
Though you put me through this pain
I thank you for treating me this way
because I am me because of you

Yeah, I'm me because of you

Oh you, because of you
ohh, because of you

Believe in Me

Lyrics

The light in your eyes
Is being taken by the dark
And I can see this all
Is breaking your heart

I may have done you wrong before

I was simply immature
But that girl, oh that girl
She is no more

So please, just forget that was even me
I don't know who I was supposed to be
Oh, can't you see
You got me begging on my knees
You really changed me baby, please
Just believe in me

A lie I've told before
But I will lie no more

I'm telling you from the bottom of my core
That I, I've never been more sure
No, I've never been more sure

So please, I'm asking you to trust in me

Let me prove I'm trustworthy

Oh, can't you see

You've got me begging on my knees

You've really changed me baby, please

Just believe in me
Oh believe in me
Please believe in me

Now we've fallen so out of love

Even though I wished
On the stars above, 

Oh, on the stars above

Why couldn't you just see it in me

That I was everything you need

I would have given you the world my baby

So please, just forget that we could ever be

I don't want you no more baby

Because you couldn't see

You had me begging on my knees

You really changed me baby, please

Oh, you shoulda just believed in me

Yeah, you shoulda just believed in me
Oh, you shoulda just believed in me

Then we'd be together baby

Thinking of You

Lyrics

It’s pitch black here
The moon won’t even shine
So I close my eyes
Your face appears

And I release a tear
As I feel that cold
by my side
It’s only blankets here

And I remember a time
When we were in love
Our happiness
Made the stars shine above

Yeah, from time to time
You cross my lonely mind
And I’m thinking of you
Late at night

Remembering all those times
you swore you were different
Yeah you know how
to treat a women like me

But reality Check
You’re just a fucking liar
A piece of shit
Like the rest of them but

From time to time
you cross my lonely mind
And I’m thinking of you
late at night

Remembering a time
when you proposed to me
and I cried
You just laughed

You must be fucking joking me
You’ve gotta be fucking kidding me
You’re an ass hole
That’s all you are

And I want you to know
yeah, I want you to know
I hope that you
Catch Aids

Death of my Sunflowers

All summer the sunshine reminds
me of you–I can’t face up, meet
the sun’s tastes. She’ll see my tears
as I shamefully wipe them away.

The sunflowers of my heart
won’t bloom. I’m dark
and bent–my face down,
staring at the unmoving ground.

My petals you ripped
one
by
one;
I see them withered all around.

Forever gone‒no
glue or band aid.
Only left to hope
I can grow‒new.

These petals won’t flourish until
your corpse leaves my mind;
rotting somewhere else, no
longer obscuring my insides.

The long summer passes;
you’ll let my sunflowers be–
soon to bloom so beautifully.

Please...

...don’t tell me you love me
when you really mean you
won’t do anything for me.

...don’t say you want to be with me
when you’ll just turn your back
as soon as I start to believe.

...don’t say I’m special
when you’ll treat me
just like every other girl.

...don’t make me fall for you,
believe love has finally found me,
break my heart, and leave.

Days & Nights

  

1.        

Some days,

I wish I didn’t always have to be
the strong one; I want to be weak.

I crave to cry out in tears rather than ink.

I desire to be the one comforted
rather than comforting the other.

I’d die just for a moment where someone
would go out of their way for me.

Instead, I will for you once again.

I wish I could be the standard girl
who cries when she hurting even just a little,
who doesn’t like to be alone–love is all she needs.

Some days, I just wish I didn’t have to be me.

2.        

Other days,

I’m glad to not be so typical; I’m happy
I can bear to be alone, lift my own spirits.

I don’t want to be anyone other than
the best me I can be– live life happy and free.

I couldn’t image crying in front of a crowd.
Oh, how embarrassing that must be–weaklings.

I hold pride in keeping a smile on my face,
though inside I may be drowning in tears.

3.        

Most nights,

I feel completely alone–wandering
the world with no place to go.

I feel my heart is filled with snow

and the frost bite will never leave;

there is a bitterness to me.

I fear I will not be able to shake the cold;
find another with whom to grow old.

I roll over once more– another tear
rolling down my cheek.

4.        

Tonight,

I feel lucky with the life I lead,
considering all the bad cards
that have been dealt to me.

I’m calm knowing I’m alone,
just my thoughts and my words
to keep me company.

Though things may not always seem easy,
I am proud to be me– to have made it through
the thick, thick weeds–came out smiling.

A Vow–A Challenge

Everyone says I can do better– I don’t really know.

I have a lingering fear I’ll just end up alone

if I don’t take some chances, let some things slide.

You may not be my perfect man but you’re a man 

who’ll stay by my side. What more can I ask 

then someone who will always be there,

will love me whether or not I lose all my hair,

wear granny underwear,

even when I’m the most difficult to bear.

But I know I can do better, I can’t settle.

My lonely heart is trying to trick my mind–

find a reason why I should make him mine.

It’s true how I was handled before makes me unsure

how a woman should be treated– one positive quality,

I’ll think you’re amazing– treat me half decent,

I've never been treated better.

But it’s time for you to step up if you think

you are the man for me–

‘Cause I will no longer be easy to please.

Reflections of a Lost Self

Closed inside a black shell,
                I waited…
                                A ray of sunlight all I wished
                to corrupt my dark abyss.

Through time I passed
                watching…
                                A hope to find relief, let
                myself be weak.

Past scowls and grumbles,
                I saw…
                                A longing to discover
                a smile on my face.

Opening my eyes, lifting my lids–
                seeing…
                                A secret rotting inside–
                no image in the mirror.