Oh Love

Lyrics:

Oh love, where have you been?
I’ve been waiting for you, pick me up again.

Oh love, it’s been so long
since you’ve shown your face here.

Come home to my heart.
Without you here it’s quite dark.

Oh love, where have you been?
I’ve been waiting for you, pick me up again.

Oh love, the sun shines a little brighter
when you here beside me

And the stars light up my darkest skies

Oh love, I’ve been missing you.

Oh love, where have you been?
Come home, pick me up again.

Discovering My Place in Deep Breaths

One cannot deny the beauty that in each breathe surrounds us. In each breath, I breathe it in, fully allowing it to seep into my bones. The beauty not only visible, but in sounds of an exhale like flowing water, pure; In smells of a deep breath, lilacs and rose bushes, my salty skin; In feelings of my breath upon my lip, wind upon my cheek, grass beneath my toes; feeling of my heart beat, sound of my heart beat, vision of my heart beat among the tree tops. My body does not end at my fingertips, my painted toes. I extend into all beings, into the belly of the Earth, the eyes of animals, the heart of the sky, the ear of the human. Everywhere is where I reside, space and time.

Mixed Emotions on Guitar

You want to know what’s in my heart,
well hate and love and all the above.
Right now I’m a sweetheart
but I can’t guarantee that tomorrow.
Tomorrow I may be feeling dark
and sing songs of exes I don’t want to remember.
‘Cause I love them and I hate them.
I’m thankful and regretful.
Wish they were here and that’d I’d never see them again.
‘Cause in this heart I just don’t know.
It’s like a rollercoaster rainbow.

And these are just my mixed emotions on guitar.
Yeah, it’s just mixed emotions on guitar.

Sure, one day I want to fall in love
the next I can’t imagine being bound,
tied down, my dreams are all I want
until it gets dark and in my bed I lay
alone, feeling that cold. But hell,
I don’t need a man to make me feel
any sort of happiness or smile
so who really knows what I want,
‘cause I sure as hell don’t.

And these are just my mixed emotions on guitar.
Yeah, it’s just mixed emotions on guitar.

Appreciating a Freedom Fought For

How fortunate I am to be–
to be a lady
held in a position
of making hard decisions.

My life I lead–my own direction.

Nothing to tie me down,
Nothing to hold me back,
just me and my visions

on the search for the right path.

There is a freedom in my mind,
something I can’t describe, when
I know no matter which way
I go, happiness I will find,

Because my options are unlimited.

You Might Be

Lyrics:

I want to feel the love
that comes from that only one.
I do.
He could make me feel so good
like the summer breeze in my hair, yeah

But in the moment, I’ll just dream,
think of the man you might be.
And I’ll picture myself held in your arms,
kissing your lips beneath those stars,
every night.

Yeah, you’d taste so good to me
treat me like the angel I try to be.
And I’d rub your feet for you every night
sing you songs under that full moon light.
I swear I would.

But in the moment, I’ll just dream,
think of the man you might be.
And I’ll picture myself held in your arms,
kissing your lips beneath those stars,
every night.

Yeah, I know I was given two hands
so I could hold my own, and
being with you won’t make me feel
any less alone,
but darling, oh sweet darling
I want you.

So I’ll just continue to dream,
think of the man you might be.
I’ll just continue to dream,
think of the man you might be.
I wonder who you’ll be.
Who will you be.

Finding a Part of Me

I’m finding more in myself
my father, who I thought I
had nothing in common.

But being so far away
I’m beginning to miss home.
Great distances for great spans
may not be what I’m made for,

just like my father.

I wish to have my land,

as he only wanted, where
I can feel a certain freedom.

I long to have my animals,
as he always did, to care
for and love, make use of.

And gardens all about, roses,
his favorite, lining all around.
Vegetables too, just like
we used to always do.

It’s the simple things I find
we both love; walking
about the grass, admiring
a budding apple tree.

It’s funny to me, to find
myself so far from home
and realize it’s not only
his blood that is my own.

Illusions Lost to the Dark

I lay here bare in the night
pretending you are beside me;
your fingertips grazing my skin,
a delicate kiss upon my shoulder.

I roll over to see your face–
Nothing but darkness,
an empty space–an image
of my lonely heart.

Reminded you are just
a dream I’m waiting to hold
I roll over once more, see
all I have are my goals.

Contemplating a Milestone

One year–
                So much has happened,
changed,
since I made you walk away.

.

One year–
                I still think of you every day,
sing
songs to ease my lingering pain.

One year–
                I wish I could call you,
see…
Know if you are okay.

One year–
                I realize you never knew
me.
I could not be myself–someone else.

One year–
                I celebrated my leaving– my
coming
such a long way from those burning days.

One year–
                I’m still finding my way without
you.
But I know without you is the right way.

Fury in my Sweet-Heart

Deep down a lover resides– a shoulder
to lean on in the hardest of times.

A sweet man, he wants to help but

inside he tries to hold something back.
It builds, builds, builds…

Heavy, hard brick walls built upon a branch.

Each breath he takes the wind beats harder,
skeletal branch becomes weaker.

Once more he snaps–black–
left with regrets,
while walls continue to build.

Webs Within

Tangled up in decisions
to be made. Knowledge
of what is right, what is
wrong– Obvious.

I know what my choice

shall be, but sometimes
wrong decisions feel so right–

feed that urge,

cure that crave.

Yet the true question 

is–in the end will I be happy.

It is clear to see, happy

is not what I’ll be but left
craving more of something

I can’t have.

Though this closeness

with you fills some gaps
and holes in my life of desires, it’s temporary.

My biggest hole of all

you cannot fill in any ways.

Love you cannot give me.

Slowly, I untangle–

walk to the right.